Towards the end of my life, when I look back, I'd like to say that these things made my life a little easier.

Books, music and love.

Duh.

Last night I had the sudden urge to go for a spin. With the window down and the wind rushing in my ears, I drove around the estate, not sure what I was looking for.

Back at home, with the TV off, the house felt strange and forlorn. I fell asleep with the TV on. The last time I did that, I was alone in a hotel room in New York.

Being married is a strange thing, no? When you're together, you just wish that you'd give each other a break. When you're really alone, nothing feels right without someone in the next room, even when he's just snoring.

I miss having you around.

Facebook likes Firefox!

I've been logging on to my FB account several times a day. No, it's not an addiction, I just want to find out what my friends have been up to lately *angelic look*

This afternoon, I happened to use IE6 to log on to my FB account. IE6 is usually reserved for office use. Not that I like it (shudders with horror), but a lot of the office applications only work on IE6, you see.

Anyway, using IE6 to log on to FB, I saw a message telling me that I was using IE6, and that some of the applications might not work. There was something about upgrading to IE7, OR using Firefox instead.

Doesn't Facebook just rock?

You are The Star

Hope, expectation, Bright promises.

The Star is one of the great cards of faith, dreams realised

The Star is a card that looks to the future. It does not predict any immediate or powerful change, but it does predict hope and healing. This card suggests clarity of vision, spiritual insight. And, most importantly, that unexpected help will be coming, with water to quench your thirst, with a guiding light to the future. They might say you're a dreamer, but you're not the only one.

What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.

"We don't need lists of rights and wrongs, tables of do's and don'ts: we need books, time, and silence. Thou shalt not is soon forgotten, but Once upon a time lasts forever."

- Philip Pullman

This is an actual conversation between me and the husband.

In the multi-storey car park -

Him: Hey, look at that guy! He's going in the wrong direction!
Me: Well, it's nearer for him that way.
Him: That's not the point! It's very dangerous for him to do that, it might cause an accident.

Moments later, round the bend outside the car park -

Me: Hey watch it, the way you're turning, we're on the on-coming lane.
Him: I can't help it, I'm in the middle of a drift.
Me: ...

I've always thought about it that way. Funny I've never voiced it out before.

I love reading not because I'm intellectual. I love it because I'm an escapist. When you have your nose buried in a book, you can actually pretend that nothing else matters in the world except getting to the end of the story. A bit like watching TV. Not too lofty, but that's the truth.

My childhood dream was not to be a teacher, pilot or air stewardess, but to own a bookshop. I wouldn't have to drag myself to and from the library. I would have my own personal collection displayed as 'Not for sale', and I would be the first reader of every book that I sell in the shop. I would stock those hard-to-find titles. Then I would be able to keep reality out of the door, and I would read to live.

Maybe I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed recently, so my childhood instincts are taking over. The dream has been coming back to me, figuratively speaking.

New phone.