My career options are constantly under review. Feel like making a career out of something that would, hopefully, take me halfway round the world. It's easy to say that I need a change of air. Deep down, I'm wondering if I'm trying to run away from something.

Need to get myself out of writing bureaucratic emails and putting up with spineless men. Need to get myself out of relying too much on certain people. Need to forget what it feels like to put my own job priorities above that of others.

I cannot be a back-stabber, neither can I tell lies and feel nothing. I cannot be a nice person to somebody else without covering up for the blatant mistakes that he makes. I cannot let myself degenerate into a lying, self-protective bitch who dresses nicely.